2011 Drawing to a Close

Look! I’ve made it through 2011, almost. On this day someone subscribed to receive e-mails whenever I update this blog.  (Oddly, on the same day a guy who says he’s from the Nigerian Tribune asked if he could interview me, as the newspaper likes to showcase Nigerians who have distinguished themselves in their fields!@#? (Sigh). I don’t know if that would be me).

Anyway, for the one person who wants to read what I’m writing, I say congratulations for making it to almost the end of the year 2011. If you have been on a hard faith journey and God has called you to do a hard thing and you’ve done it and you’ve been at it for over 3 1/2 years like me…well, double congratulations. You will reap a double reward.

This is what the Lord told me yesterday. That I have been through a wilderness – trials & tribulations – through the desert, and now I’m out, waiting for the next instructions. He warned that things might have changed. Things are different and if I’m not aware and alert and focused on Him, I might miss it. Through the site Spirit of Prophecy, He said “This is the time to re-evaluate”…for sure, I say. It is a good time to do that, as the year ends…but also because people’s reactions are changing towards me. Since I’ve been concentrating on God so much for 3 years I may not have paid attention or been aware. I should be careful moving forward or I will find myself reacting to things that are no longer true.

For instance, I might think my sister and mother don’t want me around them. Don’t want me to travel with them to visit family in NC and that is why they don’t think to invite me. That may have been the way it was. They may not want to be honest about this, but it was so. Perhaps, NOW,  it is no longer so. I could react to something that is no longer so.

No matter the case, am I a victim or an overcomer? Am I whiner or a conqueror. Yes, I’m an overcomer, a conqueror – as Christ is in this world so AM I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can tell them I want to go next time and make room for myself with them. I can move forward with different assumptions in 2012 which puts me with them, ignoring any rejection. Is rejection anything to fear. How dare I, a warrior for Christ let fear of being rejected stop me from enjoying this life God has given me. Then He sent His Son at Christmas time causing Him to lose His place in glory for me and live down here with us for 33 years. Then He died for me, so that I wouldn’t have to go to hell, be sick or be poor. Yipee!! Nothing is denied me now. Now that I know this, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

We’ve made it. You and me, the one other person reading this blog. We’ve made it. If I encourage you by writing this and you encourage me by reading and telling me you do by subscribing, then that is enough.

May God bless you and make His Face to shine upon you and give you peace. May you receive wages for work done for Him and your full reward from the Lord God of Israel under whose wings you have take refuge.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

A Distinguished writer, blogger, artist and African storyteller

 

God laughs and jokes

God is encouraging me today to go on. To trust Him. To not turn back. The Lutheran pastor (Jeske) is talking about Jesus in the wilderness and how it seemed God was going too far to almost starve Jesus. At this point, I’ve been having little times of thinking this is just ridiculous. I need to get out of here. But God is saying wait. Let the SOLG do what He is supposed to be doing. He will do it well and thoroughly. Papa, wants me on His lap, NOW!!! Get there and stay there and snuggle down.

As I do I see how worried everyone around me is and how down they are. How attached to flesh and how hard they are trying to save themselves. I’m talking about Christians. Then I look at myself. With my size 18 stretch jeans, self

Excuse me if you can. I’ve lost about 50 lbs over this faith walk I’ve been on and was a size 22w.

Oh my! God has made me someone who has to always joke around and laugh with the truths of the gospel. God is hilarious, funny. God laughs a lot and jokes a lot and tickles us until we laugh. He is the Lord of the Dance and He wants us to laugh and dance and joke around. To tease. Come on Christians, we’re supposed to. Get with the joy of the Kingdom. Get used to it. There is going to be sooooo much laughter in Heaven. Get used to laughing down here.

 

Long time no see

Oh my goodness – it’s been forever since I’ve written here. I was so shy about exposing my life, but now I’ve been video blogging my whole life, what is there to be scared of.

I’m off to Nnenna’s graduation. My niece. Love her, but hate going to these things. And this is not even the ceremony but the party part.

Why I hate High School graduations is that, isn’t high school education free here and compulsory? So what’s the big deal if you go. So what!!!! You have to go. And if you drop out, you’re an idiot. Even if your sick or sad or bad, there are correspondence courses. This is America. This is where every child in the world wish they could be. And you’re here and you’re not finishing high school. For this Nigerian woman, that is ridiculous.

But I’m taking care of mother after back surgery and she wants to go and so I’ll take her. I almost sent her with her friend Sue, but the Holy Spirit said that would not be nice. So I’m going too. Taking crocheting to do and leaving the laptop.

Wait a minute, why should I leave the laptop. I just got a jump in energy and attitude. Take it! Then I can keep downloading You Tube and write some more on the blogs I’ve neglected. I feel the Holy Spirit of God – I call Him Spirit of the Living God (SOLG) – is going to reach out and grab you all in your places and pull you into this record. Why? I don’t know, but you must need what I’m putting out there, ‘cuz He doesn’t so anything for nothing. SOLG, that is. He makes sure everything I do, means something to uplifting and expanding the Kingdom of Heaven.

The same is probably true for you, so stay in there. Somebody needs you. And He is using you.

Blessings!

Princess Ayo

 

No time to plan

“Whether by day or by night, whenever the cloud lifted, they set out.” Numbers 9:21b.  Os of  Primetime With God at info@churchgrowth.org put this out today. Then he says how hard it must have been for the Israelites to live this way. But I feel like that today. I have no idea what is going to happen in the next few minutes or how to plan out my life ahead. God has been having me in this kind of ‘straight jacket’ since March 2008!!! But you know what? I’m not finding it so bad now. I’m wondering now if I should ever live any other way?

Then Os ends with this: Ask God today if you are sitting under His cloud. Or, have you moved when He said stand still? He will show you.

 

Do it Again!

One thing God is telling us, His children to do, is to “do it again”. If we did things in the past and they didn’t work, or all our work has been stolen, lost or burnt, Jesus our Bridegroom says “do it again”. Have you ever lost an e-mail you were writing to someone and it was so good, so clear, with the right tone? Then it was gone. It hadn’t been sent, it wasn’t saved, you couldn’t find it and the technology department couldn’t find it either. So you realized you would have to do it again and when you did, you were convinced that this new e-mail was better, by far than the former. That you included things left out of the first, presented in a way not done before. The same with your life. We miss so much when we bemoan having to do something all over again. But everywhere on Earth today, God is saying “do it again!”

Some years ago, in 1988, a great writer, Rita Dove, lost a lot of her manuscripts in a fire, when her house was hit by lightning. It was devastating I’m sure. When this happened to her I’m sure she had to go on and decide to forget it or start writing again and even write the manuscripts again that she had been working on.

Trust the Lord. Now when you hear that and remember a past experience, you whine, “I did that before and it didn’t turn out well. I was evicted from my home.” Well, you will have to do it again. Now, that is really hard, but it must happen. You cannot go on in the Christian walk if you don’t do it again. Imagine if you refused to bless others and help them because the last time you did, it turned out badly. You could miss so much and so would these new people. Listen to God. Let Him tell you what to do. Trust Him and trust Him again.

Trust in the Lord, with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. Prov. 3:5

 

GOD’S SALAD! WITH FETA CHEESE.

Today I feel like taking my life back into my hands and living this thing. God is taking too long. I feel pressure. The food stamps won’t last forever, they say. THAT’S IT! “They” say. Forget them and even your own flesh (mind). I will believe the report of the Lord. Not my report or the report of officials.

Along this journey…here’s what happened to me one day.

It was April 9^th 2010 and Oh my! I sat down at Penn Station, B’more and hunger hit. I had made provision for a tuna lunch at Panera Bread but by 9:15 p.m. waiting for the MARC train into Washington D.C.  – trouble. $4.60 left to my name. What to do? Lord, your girl is hungry! Give me a good idea. He led me to the Java Café and an $8.99 salad and drink. I was eating! Delicious. And without me gobbling! Feta cheese, chicken breast, teeny tomatoes, bacon, eggs, lettuce. Buttermilk dressing & Apple juice. How did I afford it? My TD bank card. And it worked! Amazing! How is this happening? Last time I looked I had no money there. God. My Daddy God. Supplying for me! Unconventionally maybe. But I ate.

The food was more delicious for the way He provided for me. Jehovah Jireh. I am no longer hungry. Whew! I feel like I was about to teeter over a precipice because when I get hungry I get the shakes and it was coming on. The practice I’m having now is to not act too elated. Grateful Lord – Yes, (I praised You through those first five bites – & I’ll probably be on a high about this all weekend)(Nope, there were too many other highs coming) but not shocked. I should expect to be fed and expectant of a miracle.

 

The Journey Continues

It’s hard to know where to start telling you about this journey when I’ve been on it for some years. It’s called a wilderness journey or a cave experience and many of you are on it. You are people who God has chosen (sorry), you are people who love God very much, you asked for more of Him and you’re in it now and if you’ve been on it for about 23 months, like me, you are exhausted.

I figure I’ll just start with what’s happening today:

The Lord brought this word to me today from daily devotions I go to often online at www.FT111.com, Spirit of Prophecy (SOP) – I am directing you and drawing you to the next level in the process of sonship. You feel like your life and the chaos of its issues are so loud that you cannot hear Me, but I say, this is the training ground of those who would hear Me as My Son hears Me. My purposes are being carried out in your circumstances. Practice your perception of the smallest sign and the softest drawing of My Spirit, and when you see, come away a moment to Me. It is vital for you to hear My words to you personally. Vital, life.

John 5:24-25
24 Most assuredly, I say to you, he who hears My word and believes in Him who sent Me has everlasting life, and shall not come into judgment, but has passed from death into life. 25 Most assuredly, I say to you, the hour is coming, and now is, when the dead will hear the voice of the Son of God; and those who hear will live.

The difference between life and death spiritually is hearing My voice above the noise; come away a moment. (Through Brady Mathis) 

Isn’t that awesome?

I now realize John 5:24-25 means we have everlasting Life right here on Earth. That we will not be under judgment here or under the curse. That we on Earth, are passing from death to life. We don’t have to be the walking dead anymore – rushing around, trying to figure out what we should do!!! But we can live in the peace of the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth. We have heard and now can live. We were dead but now we are alive again. Luke 15:11-32 – The Prodigal Son. We don’t think that much about the Father at Jesus crucifixion. But it must have been so painful for Him, just as it is when we have our children far from us. Daddy God was in pain. Even though He knew the joy set before Him, but in that moment Satan was carrying on! It was so bad and Jesus needed God so much right then. They are one, so Daddy God must have had His hands pierced also.

LOOK! v.32 – We had to celebrate this happy day. For your brother was dead and has come back to life. He was lost, but now he is found!

I feel so rich. As I should. This is the training ground. And I felt that, as I traveled on Friday on a city bus full of  characters. Oh my! What a rollicking ride! But the Lord said, you may be running away from the exact people who will benefit from you the most. These may be the people who I am sending you to. Wealth of the wicked laid up for the righteous doesn’t mean rich people’s money for the poor. The poor can be just at wicked as the rich, and Daddy God can cause them to filter their money to you. They use their money for something.

I feel like I’ve risen to a new level of adventure and expectation. James 4:10 – Humble yourself in the sight of God and He will lift you up. Not exactly what I was thinking but Daddy God made me type it. So it must be very important. Be humble. Elevation is coming, but humility is essential. Be encouraged.

 

Faith Journey Now

As I said this is the seventh blog, the Lord has told me to start and I think it may be the most important right now. Like many of you, I am on a wilderness journey and in this blog He is revealing how my journey looks. Hopefully, it will be an encouragement.

As I look back over the year, I’m relieved that those times have past and looking back they don’t seem that hard. Maybe that is the point of those times that stretch you. The next time you are confronted with them or situations like them, you don’t see it as so hard. It’s the change that comes over us, qualifying us to go on to the next leg of the journey.

Right now I’m in a situation where I’m living with people and they are taking care of me, just like the widow of Zarephath and Elijah. In fact she is a widow friend of mine. A dear friend. One who doesn’t totally understand why I’m going about things this way and isn’t sure this is really the Lord’s will, but she keeps on feeding and housing me. I wonder if anyone else is going through this. I would love to hear from you. I won’t blame you if you’re embarrassed that you are homeless at this time. I know how you feel, but choose to rejoice and praise God, knowing He has a purpose in this and Satan is not winning even though he might be grinning now.

Even with my friend’s care and acceptance I’ve been waking up in the morning struggling to keep myself on an even keel. To not feel like I’ve lost my mind, that Jesus is still with me, that I’m still in the will of the Father. Often I wake speaking in tongues and that’s a stabilizing force.

Today, however, the Lord said to me that I am free. I have the victory already. I’ve got the ball in this game and I can out run Satan because of Christ and get a touchdown and raise my arms in victory. I’m not under, but on top. I’m not beneath, but above. He says He will soon escort me out of this narrow place. He will not disgrace me. My naysayers will not have the last word. He will get the praise and glory. The kingdom will realize a good crop for God of souls saved and Christian’s encouraged. And He is letting me see some of this good crop for Him.

Recently, Holy Spirit said “you have endured the trauma of your change”. And truly I have. That tells me I’ve made it. It harps back to earlier this year, when I told the Lord I needed a full court ‘medical’ team around me in the spirit realm with all He was putting me through. And He said why do you think I have all these angels around you?

Be encouraged saints. The end and joy of the morning, is coming as in Job 42:11 – All his brothers and sisters and everyone who had known him before came and ate with him in his house. They comforted and consoled him over all the trouble the Lord had brought upon him, and each one gave him a piece of silver and a gold ring.”! That’s better than a pat on the back! Folks, be encouraged. Of course we know Job went on to have the Lord bless him so that the latter part of his life was more than the first.

 

Here begins my 7th blog:0

This is the seventh blog. (It had been on another network , but I had to move to WordPress). I’m just being obedient folks. The journey as been long or has seemed that way. I left my apartment on January 3rd and moved into my sister Rose’s place. Since then I’ve been in six homes, (including two weeks at my mom’s twice;\).as the Lord has led me along showing me that He is my Jehovah Jireh and He can provide for me without my help.

I’m expecting great things only because now I realize I’m out of the wilderness. The Holy Spirit has got me involved in selling silver jewelry, one of my favorites, and this will be the first time this year, or for a long time, that He’s got me in something that will actually give me an income.

It’s that selling with parties stuff, that I don’t like, but I feel led. If this faith journey has taught me anything, it is that it doesn’t matter if you don’t like it, or you think it’s not you. If Jesus says do it, just do it.

For all you intelligent types out there, it may not make sense. Here’s the annoying thing, it may NEVER make sense. And worse, sometimes, Jesus is just trying to see if you’ll obey. And sometimes He’s maneuvering you around to a position He needs you in, to take you some place else. So the jewelry selling may have nothing to do with jewelry, selling or money.

Hold on for the ride!

 

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